gravity drags down the soul

i finally understand why the vibe in indiana bother's me.

people here judge, people here don't accept things, it's not their nature. While the world as california sees it may have progressed to the highest heights of humanity, the rest of the country is in the dark ages.

I can accept republicans and their different views, I can accept people who have no desire once so ever to travel, to experience new things,i can accept all races, nationalities and religions, i can even accept people who are obviously uneducated. What i cannot accept is the hate i feel here. I hear people calling the african american community niggers, i hear stories of gays, lesbians and transexuals being harassed by the people who harass them. I've heard women being objectified and degraded to their face and behind their backs. I've heard foreign students and teachers called terrorists.

I really don't think what we need is more hate, but i can't stop myself from hating them, on a personal level. I don't want to but i do. And i feel justified. We can't progress becaust they are holding us back. We can't breakthrough to the next golden age of humanity because people like this exist.

What really bothers me is that they can't see that each group they hate is made up of people, who feel pain and happiness, who exist just as they do. They even encounter these people and feel no shame, hate blindly, based on small differences. I. Don't. Know. Why.

I guess that i'm becoming like that, more and more i can't see them as people because i hate them so much. The sad part is that i always give everyone the benefit of the doubt, i think they're nice, i want to be friends with them, but my patience is becoming thin. I want to accept them, whatever they think or believe, but their hate is deep. Whatever, i'll just do my best to inform offenders of my views and ask them not to say hateful things in my presence. I won't let them bring me down with them.

Last night i couldn't sleep. Usually this would mean reading until i fell asleep, but i looked on my calendar and saw that i was supposed to do a bunch of cleaning tomorrow, so i decided why now start now. (me, doing something early?! nooo.)

So i picked up my room, took all the laundry down (which took like 3 trips), actually put my clean clothes away, put my shoes away, and cleaned everything else out that wasn't supposed to be there. Then i was hella tired so i went to sleep.

Then this morning i woke up and dusted every surface in my room, vacuumed, changed my sheets and scrubbed the bath tub (which i absolutely hate because it hurts.)

Tomorrow i'm going to vacuum the bathroom and scrub the floors. And maybe try to clean the playroom... but that's a lost cause because my sister is just gonna fuck it up again.... siiigh

Anyways, i'm super excited for thanksgiving break. My house will be okay to chill at because i've done hell of shit. No one can say no to me now. That would just be hypocritical. So yes. HOORAY BREAK!!!

Well now that life has become infinitely more simple, i am back to my video gaming habits. Truly a stress reliever for me. And apparently my counselor thinks i need stress relief and a shit load of therapy and yoga. Who knew i was so fucked up?

Anyways. I want an Xbox 360 for 3 reasons: Left 4 Dead, Halo 3, Gears of War 2

That's it. I'd sell my Wii to finance the purchase. But the Wii is about as valuable as dog shit right now.

Right now my PS3 is a godsend. I'm so glad i decided to get it. I want to get GH: World Tour, but since i won't have people to play with in the near future, not so sure about the investment.

OH, and harmonix has confirmed-ish rumors of a game entitled DJ Hero. This is old news but i've been waiting for some american company to take the beatmania premise away from Konami. In a new age of rhythm based games, you'd think Konami would be playing up DDR and porting all their arcade games. But no. They're still making games for the PS2. idiots. Anyways, i would loooove to have some modern american dance music to play with. One gets tired of technofied jazz and dj taka.

There's a new Tomb Raider game coming out. I've never really been fond of the games, but i might rent it and give it a shot.

I really want to play Mirror's Edge but i think it might make me sick, if the screen shots are any indication. Any game that says it's vertigo inducing in the description on the back is bound to make me at least a little dizzy. But hey it's first person adventure. Kinda like portal.

I'm also excited about Fallout 3. It's like a post-apocalyptic modern real world Oblivion with guns. So no unicorns (clement i'm still pissed you killed the unicorn in cold blood =P), but i get to shoot things and have more control over character development.

So yes, that is my videogaming post. Expect many awesome videogaming session over xmas break. 

These are our options for halloween. I want to go to a halloween party dammit.

http://uss-hornet.org/calendar/halloween/index.shtml (weak sauce)

http://www.skeeomedia.com/forms/donovansf/slide_ladies_rsvp.cfm (potential weak sauce)

www.peacheschrist.com/whatsup.html could be very fun.

www.dnalounge.com/flyers/2008/10/31-halloween.html  REALLY interested in that one.

www.etiquettelounge.com/home_mac.htm  not sure if it's for our age but looks really posh.

www.templesf.com/calendar#30 also a possibility.

Since it's going to rain i ditched the outdoor stuff. This is pretty much weather proof.

If none of that is good, i suggest scaring the shit out of trick or treaters and watching scary movies. Also pumpkin carving ^_^.